In a texting conversation with a friend not too long ago, I found myself admitting that so far, this hasn't been my year.
Being in my thirties, I realize how little I know, but I feel as though I should at least have some direction and purpose, that I should be striving towards something. A goal. A trajectory.
Millennials are known to be a bit entitled. To view the world as their oyster- believing they should get paid to play video games, drink beer and try on pretty clothes... and being bratty when they have to do their time putting in 40+ hrs a week for someone else. I am not afraid of hard work. I am not unfamiliar with working for a company I don't admire or love. I know the feeling of waking up in the morning and wanting to cry at the thought of putting 8 hours in at a job where I can almost feel the life and joy being sucked out of me.
I am under no impression that the world should pay me to eat brunch, drink mimosas and wear pretty clothes. Sure, there are those out there that make a living on that- more power to them.
I don't mind work. But I'm chasing after a means with passion mixed in.
Wracking my brain to try and figure out what I love, what makes me happy, what excites me... and how I can harness those desires, passions, talents and hobbies into a giver of joy. For myself, and for others. And if, along the way, it also offers monetary options, I would be over the moon. I love to write, I've always had the bashful thought that I'd love to write a book someday... on what? About what? Still thinking on that. That lead me coming to the very blatant revelation that I've neglected my blog for quite a while.
Now, I realize I don't have a huge audience- but I think I potentially still have one or two readers... and I value all (two) of you. So I'm hoping to be seeing a lot more of you. (figuratively, because, this is a blog, and fairly one sided... in that you're reading things I write. Sooooo... very one sided. Unless you comment! That's always a lot of fun!)
So, for now, know that I'm exploring. I'm seeking out ideas and people and I'm digging into things. I'm discovering author's I admire, copying quotes down feverishly in my journal, listening to podcasts and making lists, trying to watch less Netflix and spend more time with music. Buying a ukulele and plotting the day I can get a piano in my house...
Thanks for sticking around this little space.... I'll be back soon. That's a promise.